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you'll I will apologize beforehand if this sounds like I'm in pain because I actually am because I have back spasms yay um I'm getting old and my body doesn't recover like it did years ago I've always had back issues I've always had back spasm issues they don't come up all the time but probably once twice a year sometimes maybe three depending on on circumstances and all that this is the second time this year that I have been struck down by the back spasm I hate them especially specifically this one because it's right before the 4th of July holiday well actually it's the 3rd because we're the 4th on a Saturday and we're taking we're observing the holiday on the 3rd so yeah I'm missing on a holiday pay because of back spasms fun I'm not happy about it I feel rather angry about it because you know I have a job that isn't really that physically demanding except for a few things and one of them is a particular machine that only myself and one other person's trained on because we're about to no longer use that make that particular part on that particular machine and it's a very strenuous part it requires a lot of twisting and all that and really fast work and all that and here's the thing that pisses me off there are other people that are perfectly capable of doing this particular job it's a two person job that the one the job they usually do which is the packing side is relatively easy as fast but it's easy it just requires speed some people get it some people don't I have trained people on this thing and people continue to do it the wrong way I figured out a fast way to do it and it helps me to keep pace with the machine last night but not last night but the night before last I was on this machine twice it messed up twice and I had to catch things up twice and it annoys the hell out of me because I'm I already suffer from anxiety as it is and when you have when I'm in my mind I have to make sure I keep up with the machine I cannot stand getting behind on the machine no matter what the other person is doing I cannot get allow myself to get behind it drives me nuts so I don't I'm only a team player but on this machine I can't be because it drives my anxiety crazy and last night it drove my back crazy twisting and turning and now last night I had an issue with back spasms so yeah fun fun fun back spasms suck by the way in case I didn't already put that point across especially for someone like myself who has dealt with them all my freaking life so yeah happy 4th of July to me